Homesick

I am homesick today.  I feel lonely and out of place.  It is all due to recent events.  Let’s start from the top. 

My NCO decided to make his own hours and is now working with someone else.  That means I sit here alone until he arrives.  When he arrives, he goes into another office and I am again alone to deal with the day until my boss walks in the door.  Then the office is silent while he either works or whispers to his NCO passing jokes back and forth in a manner in which I am excluded because they are whispering. 

For lunch today, I went to grab my lunch buddy as usual to find he had already left for lunch.  I searched the halls and no one was there or ready to eat, so I went alone, I ate alone, and I walked back alone. 

When I got back to the office, the XO was there telling a joke to everyone present.  He turns to see I have walked through the door and says, “I’ll finish telling you guys some other time.”  Then there was silence. 

I realize as I sit here that the office happens around me and I am not actually a part of it.  My happiness comes when I leave this office and everyone smiles and says hello to me. 

This is not meant to be a “Whoa is me” blog.  This is how I feel today and I felt it best to blog than not to blog.